I THINK its a little bit of a rut

I have total technology issues and I can't figure out why my computer wants to download all my pictures over again so I don't have pictures for this post but I'll get it figured out. Sorry its been a little while I haven't had much to post about. First of all I got my Medical/Surgical final over with the and it was such a relief. I'm gonna vent for a second I had a complete melt down a week or so before the test. I felt SOOO overwhelmed. It was test after test after assignment after test after case study. I had seriously had enough!!! But I got through thae week and I was really happy with my overall grade. I was finally ready to take a deep breath. Our instructors keep telling us its downhill from here and that the OB and Pediatrics section is much easier. To my dismay, I am struggling! You guys kids do not love me. Seriously. I'm so awkward around them. My niece and nephew like me but they are the only kids that I know of. My favorite is when I say hi and their eyes water out of pure fear. Not only that but I'm not sure how I am going to deal with sick kids. I'm just a little bit of a basketcase over it. Also I'm whining because we no longer get any days off and we have 12 hour clinicals every wednesday that start at 4:45 in the morning. Its unnaturally early for me. Its actually a little gross. So while I'm venting I might as well discuss everything else thats going on my life, which lets be honest, isn't much. I've gone on a few.....interesting....blind dates. And let me just say watching a movie in a dark basement with your blind date inching closer and closer is not fun! What provokes this!?!? What myth says that this is a good idea and puts your date at ease. Also have a plan when you take someone out on a date. I went on a date the other night and we spent like an HOUR wondering around 25th street with him looking at me and saying, "Wanna eat here?" And everytime I said, "yeah that would be great". But then it didn't look good to him or he wasn't in the mood for a sandwich or he doesn't like any restaurants with chinese letters in the title. Ironiclly, we wondered around for so long that we didn't have time to eat before we had to be to the comedy club. So I ate a slice of a pizza and a refreshing glass of tap water at the club. However, it tasted amazing because I was so hungry. And of course during the act he has the balls to say..."Calm down" when I was laughing super hard at the comedian. I'm sorry, is it bothering you that I'm not miserable despite your efforts?? And of course we were on a double date and the other couple is hitting it off great. So they start kissing during the goodbye and I just sit in the car with my date standing next to the door. Should I have made conversation? Probably, but I was done for the night! Shout out to all the single ladies! Good times. I'm done venting.....I swear. Thanks I feel better.